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inkedspell) wrote2034-02-05 08:51 am
inkedspell) wrote2034-02-05 08:51 am
[OOC] Playlist for Saeri's Disordered Life
So I decided to try my hand at making a playlist with songs that relate to Saeri in some way! The songs might provide some insight to how Saeri has felt throughout her life or in the game she's in ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
deercountry. Might add more songs as I come across them. This post is video heavy!
Songs for Saeri's Life
1. Exhale - Sabrina Carpenter
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LNHM5CcvMm0
"I know there's gotta be rain if I want the rainbows
And I know the higher I climb, the harder the wind blows
Yeah, I've gone to sleep night after night punching a pillow
But do you know the darker the night, the brighter the stars glow?"
3. Rise - Katy Perry
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hdw1uKiTI5c
"When, when the fire's at my feet again
And the vultures all start circling
They're whispering, you're out of time
But still, I rise
This is no mistake, no accident
When you think the final nail is in, think again
Don't be surprised, I will still rise"
4. The Letter - Kehlani
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vl0b67l5-RM
"There's an emptiness
That only few ever feel
And I somehow missed
The meaning of love that is real
And it compliments
My scars that will never heal
Maybe I didn't deserve you
Maybe I just couldn't cure you
They told me that I didn't hurt you
Why do I feel like I turned you?"
5. Bad For Me - Meghan Trainor
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDZ3r8pG9QM
"I can't tell you what I wanna say
'Cause I, I'm afraid that you won't change
Sometimes I just wanna scream in your face
But when you're in pain, I just walk away
And my, my therapist told me to write you a letter,
She said if I did it would make me feel better
But it wouldn't do shit even if I sent it
'Cause you won't get it, you're too damn selfish"
6. You Don't Know - Katelyn Tarver
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a5AASPu_hXs
"I know you got the best intentions
Just tryna find the right words to say
I promise I've already learned my lesson
But right now, I wanna be not okay
I'm so tired, sitting here waiting
If I hear one more "Just be patient"
It's always gonna stay the same"
7. The Way You Don't Look At Me - Demi Lovato
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zrh_9tXPBKg
"'Cause when you say nothing
It's much worse than things I've overcome and
This hurts harder than my time in heaven
You don't think I see
The way
You don't look at me"
8. I Hate My Mom - GRLwood
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Du1HvDvSeHM
"Don't speak
Unless your spoken too
Because it's really rare
And if so I
Don't need to know you
Turn this on
Still leaning on, yeah
I fucking hate my mom"
9. Monet Issues - Chase Petra
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cn1TweBvM-A
"Disown me, you don't owe me, I don't want your money
Feel free to leave me out of your will
Your words again pour poison, and don't it sound like projection?
You're guided by misdirection, down roads that lead nowhere
Who were you to credit yourself with my accomplishments?
How could you lack such common sense?
The source of all my scarring, accustomed to my running
From things that shouldn't scare me, fair warning"
10. Dollhouse - Melanie Martinez
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ukLiuZT449k
"Picture, picture, smile for the picture
Pose with your brother, won't you be a good sister?
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains"
11. In The End - Linkin Park
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d_toKURCt10
"One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself of a time when I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mockin' me
Actin' like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end"
12. Maybe We’re Meant to Be Alone - Bad Suns
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BLSAuSpB1m4
"And then I met you, I wanted to love you so bad
But I don't know if I'll let myself
You came here for somebody else
And now I'm trying hard to heal
Sometimes I fantasize about faking my own death
Just to see how it would make you feel"
13. Confident - Demi Lovato
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBTtuve7QUg
"It's time to get the chains out
Is your tongue tied up?
'Cause this is my ground
And I'm dangerous
And you can get off
But it's all 'bout me tonight (Tonight)
Uh, huh, huh
So you say I'm complicated
That I must be out my mind
But you've had me underrated"
14. Gasoline - Halsey
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nbxf1hZJst8
"I think there's a flaw in my code
(Oh, ooh-oh, ooh-oh, oh)
These voices won't leave me alone
Well, my heart is gold and my hands are cold
Are you deranged like me?
Are you strange like me?
Lighting matches just to swallow up the flame like me?
Do you call yourself a fucking hurricane like me?
Pointing fingers 'cause you'll never take the blame like me?"
15. Control - Halsey
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QpL8P8cEXxA
"I paced around for hours on empty
I jumped at the slightest of sounds
And I couldn't stand the person inside me
I turned all the mirrors around
I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones"
16. So Afraid - Janelle Monáe
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmG0LAbcmuM
"And I'm afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you"
17. I'm A Mess - Bebe Rexha
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMQ3gbam5Xw
"I'm a mess, I'm a loser
I'm a hater, I'm a user
I'm a mess for your love, it ain't new
I'm obsessed, I'm embarrassed
I don't trust no one around us
I'm a mess for your love, it ain't new"
18. Ruiner - Nine Inch Nails
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SO4p9DeaCkw
"The ruiner's a collector
He's an infecter, serving his shit to his flies
Maybe there will come a day
When those that you keep blind will suddenly realize
Maybe it's a part of me
You took it to a place I hoped it would never go
And maybe that fucked me up much more than you'll ever know"
19. Leave Out All the Rest - Linkin Park
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2W3u5yXt9Zc
"Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I've made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you"
20. If You Were Here - Poe
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YB-H4fLMbKM
"If you were here
You would know how I treasured every day
How every single word you spoke
Echo's in me like a memory of hope"
21. Unbreakable (ft Miracle) - Faydee
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x-z9eDsxieg
"But then there's you
Standing over me, tryina make a fool of me
Tryina get the best of me
Oh, then there's you
Tryina shut me out, tryina kick me when I'm down
That ain't gonna stop me now, no"
22. Girl On Fire - Alicia Keys
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p4KYRuo1C-o
"She's just a girl and she's on fire
Hotter than a fantasy, lonely like a highway
She's living in a world and it's on fire
Filled with catastrophe, but she knows she can fly away"
23. THE OUTSiDE - AViVA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MefP5duw4Ss
"All our lies, we drink the lies like Kool-Aid
Now the broken dreams is too much to tame
Halt the transmission, still stuck in that system
Must fight to resist them, break out from the prison
I don't know how we're ever gonna fight but
But I know that we'll try"
deercountry. Might add more songs as I come across them. This post is video heavy!Songs for Saeri's Life
1. Exhale - Sabrina Carpenter
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LNHM5CcvMm0
"I know there's gotta be rain if I want the rainbows
And I know the higher I climb, the harder the wind blows
Yeah, I've gone to sleep night after night punching a pillow
But do you know the darker the night, the brighter the stars glow?"
3. Rise - Katy Perry
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hdw1uKiTI5c
"When, when the fire's at my feet again
And the vultures all start circling
They're whispering, you're out of time
But still, I rise
This is no mistake, no accident
When you think the final nail is in, think again
Don't be surprised, I will still rise"
4. The Letter - Kehlani
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vl0b67l5-RM
"There's an emptiness
That only few ever feel
And I somehow missed
The meaning of love that is real
And it compliments
My scars that will never heal
Maybe I didn't deserve you
Maybe I just couldn't cure you
They told me that I didn't hurt you
Why do I feel like I turned you?"
5. Bad For Me - Meghan Trainor
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDZ3r8pG9QM
"I can't tell you what I wanna say
'Cause I, I'm afraid that you won't change
Sometimes I just wanna scream in your face
But when you're in pain, I just walk away
And my, my therapist told me to write you a letter,
She said if I did it would make me feel better
But it wouldn't do shit even if I sent it
'Cause you won't get it, you're too damn selfish"
6. You Don't Know - Katelyn Tarver
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a5AASPu_hXs
"I know you got the best intentions
Just tryna find the right words to say
I promise I've already learned my lesson
But right now, I wanna be not okay
I'm so tired, sitting here waiting
If I hear one more "Just be patient"
It's always gonna stay the same"
7. The Way You Don't Look At Me - Demi Lovato
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zrh_9tXPBKg
"'Cause when you say nothing
It's much worse than things I've overcome and
This hurts harder than my time in heaven
You don't think I see
The way
You don't look at me"
8. I Hate My Mom - GRLwood
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Du1HvDvSeHM
"Don't speak
Unless your spoken too
Because it's really rare
And if so I
Don't need to know you
Turn this on
Still leaning on, yeah
I fucking hate my mom"
9. Monet Issues - Chase Petra
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cn1TweBvM-A
"Disown me, you don't owe me, I don't want your money
Feel free to leave me out of your will
Your words again pour poison, and don't it sound like projection?
You're guided by misdirection, down roads that lead nowhere
Who were you to credit yourself with my accomplishments?
How could you lack such common sense?
The source of all my scarring, accustomed to my running
From things that shouldn't scare me, fair warning"
10. Dollhouse - Melanie Martinez
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ukLiuZT449k
"Picture, picture, smile for the picture
Pose with your brother, won't you be a good sister?
Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains"
11. In The End - Linkin Park
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d_toKURCt10
"One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself of a time when I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mockin' me
Actin' like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end"
12. Maybe We’re Meant to Be Alone - Bad Suns
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BLSAuSpB1m4
"And then I met you, I wanted to love you so bad
But I don't know if I'll let myself
You came here for somebody else
And now I'm trying hard to heal
Sometimes I fantasize about faking my own death
Just to see how it would make you feel"
13. Confident - Demi Lovato
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBTtuve7QUg
"It's time to get the chains out
Is your tongue tied up?
'Cause this is my ground
And I'm dangerous
And you can get off
But it's all 'bout me tonight (Tonight)
Uh, huh, huh
So you say I'm complicated
That I must be out my mind
But you've had me underrated"
14. Gasoline - Halsey
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nbxf1hZJst8
"I think there's a flaw in my code
(Oh, ooh-oh, ooh-oh, oh)
These voices won't leave me alone
Well, my heart is gold and my hands are cold
Are you deranged like me?
Are you strange like me?
Lighting matches just to swallow up the flame like me?
Do you call yourself a fucking hurricane like me?
Pointing fingers 'cause you'll never take the blame like me?"
15. Control - Halsey
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QpL8P8cEXxA
"I paced around for hours on empty
I jumped at the slightest of sounds
And I couldn't stand the person inside me
I turned all the mirrors around
I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home
I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones"
16. So Afraid - Janelle Monáe
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmG0LAbcmuM
"And I'm afraid
Ah, I'm so afraid
Ah, what if I lose?
Is what I think to myself
I'm finding my shell
I'm afraid of it all, afraid of loving you"
17. I'm A Mess - Bebe Rexha
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMQ3gbam5Xw
"I'm a mess, I'm a loser
I'm a hater, I'm a user
I'm a mess for your love, it ain't new
I'm obsessed, I'm embarrassed
I don't trust no one around us
I'm a mess for your love, it ain't new"
18. Ruiner - Nine Inch Nails
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SO4p9DeaCkw
"The ruiner's a collector
He's an infecter, serving his shit to his flies
Maybe there will come a day
When those that you keep blind will suddenly realize
Maybe it's a part of me
You took it to a place I hoped it would never go
And maybe that fucked me up much more than you'll ever know"
19. Leave Out All the Rest - Linkin Park
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2W3u5yXt9Zc
"Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I've made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you"
20. If You Were Here - Poe
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YB-H4fLMbKM
"If you were here
You would know how I treasured every day
How every single word you spoke
Echo's in me like a memory of hope"
21. Unbreakable (ft Miracle) - Faydee
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x-z9eDsxieg
"But then there's you
Standing over me, tryina make a fool of me
Tryina get the best of me
Oh, then there's you
Tryina shut me out, tryina kick me when I'm down
That ain't gonna stop me now, no"
22. Girl On Fire - Alicia Keys
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p4KYRuo1C-o
"She's just a girl and she's on fire
Hotter than a fantasy, lonely like a highway
She's living in a world and it's on fire
Filled with catastrophe, but she knows she can fly away"
23. THE OUTSiDE - AViVA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MefP5duw4Ss
"All our lies, we drink the lies like Kool-Aid
Now the broken dreams is too much to tame
Halt the transmission, still stuck in that system
Must fight to resist them, break out from the prison
I don't know how we're ever gonna fight but
But I know that we'll try"
24. Breaking The Habit - Linkin Park
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v2H4l9RpkwM
"Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss knowing it's all good, it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around"
"Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again"
25. Somewhere I Belong - Linkin Park
https://www.youtube.com/embed/-YQ8IbVIwPM
"I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything 'til I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today"
26. Fuckin' Perfect - P!nk
https://www.youtube.com/embed/UL9HEiH6hPM25. Somewhere I Belong - Linkin Park
https://www.youtube.com/embed/-YQ8IbVIwPM
"I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything 'til I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today"
26. Fuckin' Perfect - P!nk
"Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss knowing it's all good, it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around"