inkedspell | [IC] Inbox for deercountry

What else happens when you mistakenly send a text to a random person? This ain't a meet-cute, so friendship.

But you've come across the tried and true problem of a place like Deer. Most of the people who come and go and come back don't remember being here.

It's not your fault, but I'm betting something important happened last time that meant a lot to him. Maybe you bonded in a way that feels weird to try and repeat because it's not organic.

Like falling in love with your rival-teammate-friend and not knowing how to tell him.

[Oh yeah she's not letting that go.]

[Keith read that a few times. Well, at least the part about something important happening that he didn't remember because of going home and coming back again. He frowned a bit, deciding to focus on that more than the rest of it. (So not talking about the whole falling in love thing... definitely not.)]

He did mention something about us like Bonding more or something Back in the dream And he like got upset about it That I didnt remember

[OH GOD... no. Keith didn't want to think too hard about this. Nope.]

[Good to know her assumptions are being vindicated, but that just means she's going to push this even more.]

So you did have a more intimate relationship. And since you don't remember he's upset because it feels like he's lost something.

The only way to fix that is talk it out or make a move yourself. What do you want in your relationship? If he wants more, would you be cool with that?

[Keith stared.

Did he want something from it? He wasn't even sure. Trench had messed around with his feelings so many times already, and there were clues and hints, and things being thrown at them, and Keith was just confused by it all. Enough so that he'd mostly been avoiding it just for what felt like the sake of his sanity.]

I havent really thought about it

Maybe you should be.

You don't owe him a date, but if he's really someone you care about it would only be best for you to figure out if you could want the same thing he does.

Because he definitely wants it.

And if you don't, be upfront about it so he can stop hoping you might one day.

You really think he does? Cuz I dont know It doesnt always feel like it And sometimes I wonder if its just this place messing with my head Making me feel things

[He does not know what he's just done.]

Oh, so you DO feel something. Just how much of a Something is that something?

I never said that! I said this place could be making me feel things I dont know if im really feeling anything!

So you are still feeling Something. You just don't know where it's coming from.

And that says that you know exactly where it's coming from, you just don't want to admit it.

Ask yourself, does it even matter? We're never going home so whatever we feel here is as real as it's ever going to get for us. Are you that afraid to let it be real?

[ ..... ]

[She wasn't wrong...]

A lots happened to him I dont want to push him Even if what im feeling is real WHICH IM NOT SAYING IT IS

[He's totally saying it is.]

Seems like he's been trying to push you and you haven't been responding.

You can't push someone by pulling on the door they've been trying to push open. You're just getting them where they want to be faster.

Sometimes it feels more like hes pushing me away

Maybe he thinks you want that. Since you haven't been doing anything about the very obvious signals he's been dropping.

How is pushing me away making it obvious he likes me Thats just more confusing

He's pushing you away because it hurts too much to keep you close, since he thinks you don't want what he wants.

Which you obviously do, so how about you try holding his hand next time he tries to push you and see how that goes.

[Keith stared at the message for a second.]

Hes not actually pushing me It was a figure of speech

[KEITH, PLEASE.]

And you clearly don't know what an extended metaphor is except a means for you to ignore my point.

[Blink blink.

Oh.

Oops.]

So You werent being literal

About the hand-holding? Yeah. Hold his hand, cuddle up, give him a kiss, whatever.

Stop bullshitting and make a decision. If you want it to be real, then make it real.

[There was a looooooong pause before Keith responded.]

I have to think about it

[Because, sure... maybe it was that simple. But Keith also knew that there was also a lot of trauma there that Lance was dealing with, and he also knew that some of that trauma had to do with him in the Nightmare. Things had happened. He didn't know all the details, but the last thing he wanted to do was blow up their friendship at the same time.]

You do that.

Just remember he's been waiting a lot longer than you have, sounds like, and don't spend too long doing it.

[Keith sighed.]

Yeah Thanks

[Maybe...]

You're welcome.

Don't be afraid to make the next text intentional. If you need someone to give you another friendly kick in the ass.

[Heh...]

Right Ill keep it in mind

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