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[Uh...]

No

[Oh quiznak.]

Its kinda complicated

[Oh. Oh. There is so much more here. She would be pulling up a chair right now if she wasn't already in one.]

Life's complicated.
I'm all for complicated.
Go on.

[Oh. That backfired, didn't it? Keith mentally cursed.]

Well like Were kinda rivals I think He says we are I dont know But were teammates And its awkward

[So very much so. And obviously this guy is too blind to see the writing on the wall here.]

Rival is just another term for sexual tension caused by imbalances in relationship dynamics. He sees you as a rival while also wanting you as an equal.

I wonder how much of an equal. Either of you ever almost died for the other or been severely injured trying to protect each other?

[Okay, that wasn't helping him feel better.]

Not exactly

[Like, Lance had saved Coran that way, but that didn't count. But Keith did kind of almost ram his ship into another one to try stopping a planet-sized bomb from destroying Voltron... but that was for the whole team! Not just for Lance!]

How "exactly" is it?

Spare no details, friend, I'm here for you.

[ ..... ]

Friedn?

[Granted, he'd already said Lance's name, and this hadn't exactly been anonymous. He wasn't too sure about giving too many more details than that.]

We just have a history Went to the same school Hes alwyas called himself my rival But were teammates I consider him a friend at least But its been weird since I got here Something about me having been her before and hes upset that I forgot or something

What else happens when you mistakenly send a text to a random person? This ain't a meet-cute, so friendship.

But you've come across the tried and true problem of a place like Deer. Most of the people who come and go and come back don't remember being here.

It's not your fault, but I'm betting something important happened last time that meant a lot to him. Maybe you bonded in a way that feels weird to try and repeat because it's not organic.

Like falling in love with your rival-teammate-friend and not knowing how to tell him.

[Oh yeah she's not letting that go.]

[Keith read that a few times. Well, at least the part about something important happening that he didn't remember because of going home and coming back again. He frowned a bit, deciding to focus on that more than the rest of it. (So not talking about the whole falling in love thing... definitely not.)]

He did mention something about us like Bonding more or something Back in the dream And he like got upset about it That I didnt remember

[OH GOD... no. Keith didn't want to think too hard about this. Nope.]

[Good to know her assumptions are being vindicated, but that just means she's going to push this even more.]

So you did have a more intimate relationship. And since you don't remember he's upset because it feels like he's lost something.

The only way to fix that is talk it out or make a move yourself. What do you want in your relationship? If he wants more, would you be cool with that?

[Keith stared.

Did he want something from it? He wasn't even sure. Trench had messed around with his feelings so many times already, and there were clues and hints, and things being thrown at them, and Keith was just confused by it all. Enough so that he'd mostly been avoiding it just for what felt like the sake of his sanity.]

I havent really thought about it

Maybe you should be.

You don't owe him a date, but if he's really someone you care about it would only be best for you to figure out if you could want the same thing he does.

Because he definitely wants it.

And if you don't, be upfront about it so he can stop hoping you might one day.

You really think he does? Cuz I dont know It doesnt always feel like it And sometimes I wonder if its just this place messing with my head Making me feel things

[He does not know what he's just done.]

Oh, so you DO feel something. Just how much of a Something is that something?

I never said that! I said this place could be making me feel things I dont know if im really feeling anything!

So you are still feeling Something. You just don't know where it's coming from.

And that says that you know exactly where it's coming from, you just don't want to admit it.

Ask yourself, does it even matter? We're never going home so whatever we feel here is as real as it's ever going to get for us. Are you that afraid to let it be real?

[ ..... ]

[She wasn't wrong...]

A lots happened to him I dont want to push him Even if what im feeling is real WHICH IM NOT SAYING IT IS

[He's totally saying it is.]

Seems like he's been trying to push you and you haven't been responding.

You can't push someone by pulling on the door they've been trying to push open. You're just getting them where they want to be faster.

Sometimes it feels more like hes pushing me away

Maybe he thinks you want that. Since you haven't been doing anything about the very obvious signals he's been dropping.

How is pushing me away making it obvious he likes me Thats just more confusing

He's pushing you away because it hurts too much to keep you close, since he thinks you don't want what he wants.

Which you obviously do, so how about you try holding his hand next time he tries to push you and see how that goes.

[Keith stared at the message for a second.]

Hes not actually pushing me It was a figure of speech

[KEITH, PLEASE.]

And you clearly don't know what an extended metaphor is except a means for you to ignore my point.

[Blink blink.

Oh.

Oops.]

So You werent being literal

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